i don't know what to do anymore. Life just isnt working out. I know you are all gonna say is that im too young, there is so much to live for, it gets better. But sometimes it doesnt. Maybe things get worse. I constantly fall into my deoression. I always push people away. I try not to, it just happens. I beat myself up for it, or anything midly wrong. I spend hours checking social medias, making myself sick because im not close friends like they are or im not making something cool like she is or im not pretty like those girls. And its killing me. I can't live like this anymore. I haven't showered in weeks, I've eaten so much I've gained 20 pounds in a month, I had sex just to feel liked for a moment. All this just adds fuel to the fire.
I'm too far gone to be helped and saved now.
I just want to say something just in case someone (even though I doubt it) wonders about me if I go missing.
I want to end saying that Roosterteeth and the RT Community helped keep me going this far, but it doesn't help anymore.
I wish you all the best and I hope you do amazing things.
I'm sorry I hurt and let you all down.