Hey everyone. How are you?
I hope you are doing well.
It's been a long time since i updated my journal, so here goes.
Ever since i stopped working at the school for the summer vacation, i've been looking for a job to pass the season with no success. And i've been trying out to sell my creations, also with no success. Now, i'm trying out my luck with Youtube and see where it goes. But until it gives decent paycheck, i'm still looking for a real job.
Heck, i even tried to contact the Firefighter's Academy and see if i could join the force. But nope, i was informed that i have to take part to the national school exams that happen every single year in order to enter a university (any university). I may be a music teacher but it's been 10 years since i took those exams and failed miserably. In a sense, i'm out of shape for studying high school lessons again.
Now why Firefighter? To continue my dad's legacy. My father is a retired firefighter and i wanted to give it a shot if it was possible.
A few days ago, i broke down, feeling so dissapointed and desperate for a sign... I felt lost. Because i try and try and try, and nothing comes out of it.
Yet, after that breaking point, i somehow felt reliefed and today i have this attitude of "no matter what happens, i'll get to where i want."
It was some sort of a cleansing experience.
Sometimes you have to break down in order to be stronger. There is no way that you can carry all this burden in you without breaking at some point. It is good to let it all out. Or else you'll lose it completely.
I'll keep trying and keep going forward, because why not? One day i will definitely reach my goals. Whatever life throws against me.
So guys, i want you to know that whatever you are going through in your life, don't give up. No matter what, don't give up.
Be true to yourselves, stand up for what is right. People may not like you for telling and speaking the truth, but you are not them. You are you and that's what matters.
Cheers to you all!