Hey guys, how are you all?
I hope you are doing well.
I'll go straight to the point in today's post, because i'm really troubled from some events that took place in just a couple of days. Specifically yesterday and this morning.
So... To start a little bit from the beginning. I'm a member of the amatuer theatrical team of Sparta for like 7 months now. I found it pretty cool to try out something new like theatrical plays, seminars, reading monologs and other simiral stuff. I went there in order to learn how to act, and as a extend to that, learn voice acting.
Everything were going great until yesterday. Yesterday, we as a team had a general discussion meeting for our next goals towards the summer, what we would like to do, since the theatrical play that took place is over.
At the beginning everything went smoothly, talking about stuff and then the first blow up came with something that took place on Facebook. And oh my goodness, the arguement. It wasn't necessarily a minor thing, because it was a copyright issue of the name of our team, being stolen by someone else on Facebook, but the fuss and the reaction that happened next, was childish, if not worse. I don't want to cuss.
After that, i thought that the spirits were cooled off and everything was going back to a normal discussion. I was so very wrong. What happened next was even worse than the first. There was a racist comment from one team mate to another that was expressed behind their back. I felt heart broken when i learned that this comment was made by a friend of mine, because it didn't hurt only the other but also myself. Although i didn't rush to judge her. Because everyone can do stupid mistakes, right? No one is without sin, shall i say.
My point to this matter is that i was not bothered as much by what she said behind the back of other, as i was bothered by the condemnation of the team towards her. They lashed out at her like lions attacking their prey.
What bothered me (A LOT) is that the offended person did not approach her before hand to talk to her in person and letting her know that they were offended by what she said. They choose to expose her completely in front of the entire team, hence the extreme reaction from it.
I voiced my opinion over this matter, saying that we should not rush to conclusions and that we should give her a chance to defend herself and try to apologize. They did so, but still they were not pleased for what she said, trying to apologize and all of that. Then came the proposal to completely erasing her for being a member.
I was and still am very frustrated and very disappointed by all this. Why? Because in the end i came to the conclusion that everyone is for themselves and not for the team. I just can't take this kind of bullshit. (oops i cussed)
Today, something happened at work and it was in a more personal lvl.
I learned that since the government owned us musicians working hours, they gave at the school a few extra working hours. Everything fine with that. Now, my dear colleaques, didn't inform some of us that this good thing happened and they shared with the principal the hours for themselves, leaving me and another colleaque of mine out of it. Now THAT is not fair at all. And i'm really, REALLY pissed off about it because once again, it's all about that little fucking "me" instead of "us".
Of course i will talk to the principal about it and ask with what logical terms they dicided to do what they did. For example, i was supposed to work for 14 hours a week and instead of that i work only for 6. Forcing me to exclude 3 students of mine from the lessons in order to work. Now this came up and i was not given any hours at all. It's not only unfair towards me but most of all it's unfair towards the students that were forced to be excluded from my lessons.
For crying out loud, what in the world is going on? My head is about to explode at this point.
Is really common sense a lost thing? I don't understand how people find it cool to hurt others for their own gain and pleasure. It's just beyond me. I can't even comprehend the fact that these kind of attitudes are so much on the rise.
I'm really sorry for this long post.
I just needed to let it out somewhere, before i explode.
I hope you guys have betters days than i have and that you don't have to deal with these kind of shit in daily basis as i do.